my life in kythe

this is a my story with

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when i was a freshman in college, orgs seemed to be a good distraction to the life that lay ahead. i thought that this would be a good way to make new friends and make the hell that is college more livable. Too bad i chose the wrong orgs. I never felt that i belonged. it was like i was fish who couldn't or wouldn't want to breathe in water.

Since kythe only accepted second year students as members, when i got to second year it seemed to ba a good choice. haha. shallow me. actually it seemed perfect for me. i'm bs psych so it gets me into a hospital but the focus was psychosocial in nature. and i love kids. my blockies were also interested so i wasn't going into it alone. it was perfect.

at first, i was scared. how would i be able to handle dealing with a child who, most likely has a foot in the grave. of course, it really occupied my mind how freaky that could turn out so i just did the playroom thing and hung out with the pediatric patients. it was fun. the toys were fun.

and then, it was time to be assigned to 624. and this was something i dreaded. my first bedside. i was told that my kid would be a one-year-old boy. i was thinking "not bad." i love toddlers. so we went to choose our toys. i got this real colorful disney toy. it looked to be interesting with buttons and stuff. when we went up there i looked for niko, my kid. i find this kid with the roundest eyes alone on the bed since his dad was by the balcony. i asked his dad if it was okay to play with him and his dad seemed relieved because he had to run some errands. i was left to fend for myself with a plastic toy. so i sit down at the side of the bed and start showing him the toy. this kid was really cute, he seemed so unassuming and innocent. he took the toy and started pressing the buttons and it did absolutely nothing. no sounds, no lights, nothing. if i had a swear jar, i'd put around three quarters then. the toy was battery operated and it had no batteries in it. great. i was close to freaking out and this kid was just looking at me with his big, round eyes and his full lips in a little pout. tee hee. what to do? so he presses a button again and i make a stupid sound like "vroom,vrooom". he presses another button and i bark. i made the weirdest noises and matched them with goofy faces and niko was amused. he smiled. the sweetest smile in the world even if he only had a few teeth. and he laughed. and i knew that i loved this kid. i ran out of sounds so we played with my id, his empty Yakult bottle and the bedsheets. he was seemed really happy with what we were doing. when we finally realized that the things we were doing were boring, i carried him and he came with me. we went around to the other beds in the ward. and he was really playful and friendly even with the other kids. but this kid was heavy. but it was so nice to be carrying him in my arms and having him that close to me. i loved the kid. and i was checking the time and it was nearly time to leave. i put niko back in his bed so i could call my friends assigned to a different ward. i told pau and jen to wait in 624 and that's where we'd all meet up. when i got mary and mia, we went back to 624 to pau and jen. and in the hallway, there was this little kid who started running toward me. niko? hey great. he runs toward me and i scoot down to catch him. man, this kid can already walk and i carried him for the longest time around the ward. hahaha! waaaah!

this is turning out longer than i expected so i'll continue at another time...