the life after today

I am having one of my busiest days ever.

Just last week I was feeling left out. It seemed that there was this rush of everything going past me as if I was left in the middle when everyone else was going toward some thing (even more foreboding, something they had planned ahead for).

Now, I feel like I have joined the stampede. All those years of going around in circles and never finding my center is now catching up. So I have to run even harder and faster now. I need to jostle my way through.

God help me.